Archives for the month of: April, 2025

My weekly trip to the farmers market is always an adventure: what will there be in the last week of April? After decades of farmers market shopping, farm box subscriptions and growing my own food in California, I had a pretty good idea what to expect in the markets there. I knew homegrown cherry tomatoes might be ripe on June 30, or Fourth of July and sweet corn would soon follow, but I have lived two states to the north for less than a year and do not know what to expect.

I’ll adjust, but I am not adjusted. The days have gotten long here and cavalcades of flowers are blooming: bulbs and shrubs and flowering trees: peonies, iris, tulips, lilacs, rhododendrons, cherries and plums. And yet the food crops are stubbornly behind sunny California or even foggy coastal California.

I got excited on Friday because the market newsletter had said there would be strawberries this week. I packed empty glass containers to carry them home in and got to the market just as it opened to be sure to get some.

I didn’t see any strawberries when I walked through the market. I stopped to buy radishes and spring salad mix and a loaf of whole wheat sourdough. I walked through a second time. No strawberries.

I stopped by the market booth. “The newsletter said you would have strawberries this week. Did the vendor not come?”

The woman in the booth looked at me.

“Strawberry plants,” she said, naming the vendor.

Oh.

I spotted some rhubarb. Perhaps it was dreaming of strawberries like I was.

I did not buy any rhubarb this week. Once, in an effort to try everything in a market, I bought a bunch of rhubarb and made all kinds of things with it. You can read about those experiments here. I may get so I crave rhubarb in the spring after a few years in Washington, but I am not there yet.

There are no root crops in the market except radishes. Where are the carrots, the spring beets, the new potatoes?

On my way out, I bought arugula with my last six dollars. I’ll be eating both salads and cooked greens this week: spring salad mix, arugula, radish greens, bok choy and the last of some savoy cabbage I bought some weeks back. The arugula farmer had cauliflower, but I do not like cauliflower (If I want some, I can get some next week).

Once home I cooked my last two beets: I will eat those in salads this week with walnuts, feta, various greens and a vinaigrette with pomegranate molasses (I found pomegranate molasses at the health food store this week and am delighted to have it).

I am beginning to long for fresh fruit. I have blood oranges, oranges, lemons and limes. I have frozen blueberries. I have canned sour pie cherries. I have dried cranberries and dried cherries and dates. I eat all of these things. If I were in California I would be feasting on strawberries by now. I can make wonderful cherry pie out of canned sour cherries. I can make candied orange peel and eat it in oatmeal with dates and cinnamon. I have jams and apple butter as well. I can make do.

The truth is I am tired of winter eating. I am glad of spring salads. And I wonder what we will have to eat next week in western Washington.

The Trump tariffs have just been imposed, then paused, then changed. The stock market is tanking. All of us stand to lose something or many things in a completely unnecessary crisis.

I don’t know about you, but for me this seems like a good time to think about what I really want, what I value, what makes me happy from day to day. What things do I need to have in my life?

I’ll answer the questions — for me. You can answer the questions for you. We are all different: just like you may not want to eat or cook the things that I cook and my grocery list might be vastly different from yours, what it takes to make you happy will not necessarily be what will make me happy. Farmers markets make me happy. Restaurants and cafes I like make me happy, although I have been to few restaurants or cafes in the last seven months. Still, I like to be within reach of them, even for a rare celebration.

Off the top of my head. I like good quality things. I would rather have fewer things of excellent quality than lots of cheap or poorly-made things. I can dial back on variety if I like what I have. For example, I have kind of a uniform for everyday dressing. I’ve worn it for years. My basics are 100% cotton black jeans, preferably in a classic boot cut, crew neck long-sleeved 100% cotton shirts, cashmere sweaters (Yes, I know they are expensive, but I buy them on sale or at thrift stores, I hand-wash them and I mend them myself. I like them because they are light and warm). Fleece vests in bright colors and black. These are harder to find than they used to be and I know that fleece is controversial. Again, I like it because it is light and warm and bright. Also, I adore vests, particularly vests with pockets. Cotton socks and underwear because I prefer natural fabrics. I will mend and darn socks and underwear to keep them going. And I like hats. I buy wool berets. My summer hats are not as durable: I favor spangled caps and have two, both mended.

Shoes are expensive for me: I am hard on shoes and I have an odd gait from cerebral palsy. My favorite shoes as of last summer are these shoes from Stumble Stuff. They lasted nine months. I just bought my second pair before the tariffs arrived. I’ve bought other styles from this company, but these are the most durable. My other go-to pair of shoes are snow boots that I bought from Lands End some years back: they are good for rain, snow and rough terrain. They fit perfectly and I have kept them going by having them re-heeled and soled periodically. I own more dress shoes than I may need for the rest of my life because I bought them on sale when a local shoe store discounted them: they are all Joseph Seibel mary janes in black or tan. I love colored leather shoes (red, blue, turquoise, purple), but they are not usually on sale.

Anyway, wardrobe aside, what I need for a good life are means of communication: paper and pens, stamps, a phone, a laptop. I buy refurbished laptops and phones from Apple because I am a Mac user. I do not need the latest of anything to be happy. I like fountain pens, but good, cheap ones are no longer available (I grew up with Shaeffer cartridge pens) so I have gone to Pilot G-2 refillable pens for now. Unfortunately, Pilot is based in Japan, so the price for refills may go up soon. My notebook of choice has been the Blueline A9 for years. They were $10.95 last time I bought a stack and the manufacturer’s website says they are $13.35 now. Um, not sure what I’ll do about that: I like sturdy, hardbound notebooks and Blueline uses recycled content, which I also like.

I need books to be happy, books I have read and books I haven’t read. I own a lot of books, most currently in storage, but I have a library card as well. I make use of Little Free Libraries. I buy books at library sales. Sometimes, when I can afford it, or when I need it for a class I’m teaching, I buy a new book.

I need music to be happy. I attend a few musical Zooms each month. I try to remember to listen to music at a time when my listening diet is mostly political news. I am energized at protests when musicians sing or play or drum to keep us going, give us energy. When I am happiest, I sing. When I listen in silence, there is always a song in my head, which my former partner called “the internal jukebox” (We would ask each other, “What’s on the jukebox?”). I have a large collection of music that I have put on my laptop and I make use of YouTube to look for music.

I also own musical instruments: a piano, a Celtic harp, a recorder, a couple of acoustic guitars. Right now I have just one guitar with me, but one guitar is all I need to practice, to play, to arrange songs. I used to be a busker.

And I need a musical community, people who love the music I love (or at least a portion of it — nobody will love everything I do). Since the pandemic, I have been missing opportunities to play live music with other people. Since I left my home town I have not had opportunities to hear live music. I am hoping that these things will change once I am permanently settled.

Good food, communications equipment, books, music, community. What else? I left my cat Onyx in California during my long transition. I hope to reunite with her, possibly this summer.

I need a permanent, stable place to live. Because of an inheritance, I am hoping to buy such a place with a door I can close, a yard I can garden in, fruit trees, room for my books and music, a place for guests to sleep. For now I am living in a lovely temporary furnished rental and, for now, that is enough. But once I have a home of my own I can redeem my books, records, CDs, furniture, and kitchen equipment from storage.

I need to be surrounded by beauty, to look on a pleasing aspect, to live in well-proportioned rooms, however few they might be. I need to be in water: ocean water, river water, pool water, bath water. I need to live among trees.

I need my country to be a country of liberty and justice for all, freedom of expression, religion, assembly, due process. And right now it is failing badly.

What about you? What do you need to be happy?

I thought I had started this week’s post, but I can’t find a draft. I start the post on Saturday because Saturday is farmers market day. I’m still buying and eating Brussels sprouts and kale each week. Will I always eat Brussels sprouts and kale? No. When will I stop buying Brussels sprouts and kale? When there are other things at the market to buy. Today there was purple sprouting broccoli — I didn’t know what I would do with that so I didn’t buy any. Total spending: $17.00. I didn’t buy a treat today and I’m doing less cooking and eating the same things over and over because I’ve been busy with protests.

When I got home, I made kale salad with lemon-tahini dressing and ate shortcake and tea.

Saturday breakfast: baked French toast with blueberries, coffee; lunch: kale salad, mixed berry shortcake, black tea; dinner: pasta with Brussels sprouts and pesto.

Sunday I had a Zoom meeting after breakfast and went to a noon protest: I carried a bag of crackers, cheese, dried cranberries and almonds with me, but did not eat it there. I stopped off at the health food store on the way home for staples: half and half, frozen blueberries and dried sour cherries. Total spending: $23.04 Sunday breakfast: baked French toast with blueberries, coffee; lunch: crackers, smoked cheddar, cranberries, almonds, kale salad, mixed berry shortcake, black tea; dinner: homemade bean burrito with salsa and sour cream.

Monday breakfast: French toast with blueberries, coffee; lunch: kale salad, homemade pizza with arrabiata sauce, kalamata olives, roasted peppers and Italian sausage. After Monday lunch I wanted to use some shortcake biscuits, so I made them into faux scones with cream and jam: I split a shortcake and put it in the oven that was warm from baking the pizza. Then I whipped plain cream. I spread the warm shortcake with lingonberry jam and topped it with whipped cream. There is a controversy whether you apply the jam or cream first to a scone (or faux scone). I like the jam on the bottom — if you put the cream on the bottom of a warm pastry, it melts. I like biting through the cool cream into the jam and biscuity base. I wanted something different for dinner tonight, so I sauteed half of an Italian sausage, some orange bell pepper and scallions and added a couple of scrambled eggs. I ate that wrapped in a whole wheat tortilla with a dash of Cholula and followed it up with an orange — breakfast for dinner, always an option if you like breakfast food.

Tuesday breakfast: last of the baked French toast with blueberries, coffee; lunch: kale salad, pizza, black tea; snack: shortbread with jam and cream; dinner: refried beans, salsa, corn tortillas.

Wednesday breakfast: pumpkin pancakes with blueberries, coffee; lunch: kale salad, pizza, black tea, pumpkin blondie. I wasn’t hungry at dinner, so I just ate some almonds and dried sour cherries.

Thursday breakfast: pumpkin pancakes with blueberries, coffee; lunch: kale salad, pizza; snack: shortbread with jam and cream, black tea; dinner: pasta with pesto and Brussels sprouts; snack: chocolate.

Thursday I stopped at Grocery Outlet for some basic supplies. Here’s what I bought: a gallon of whole milk ($3.99) five pounds of all purpose flour ($2.49), salami ($9.99), pizza crusts ($3.79), pasta ($2.38), lemons ($2.76), canned pumpkin ($3.79), canned sour cherries ($3.98) and toilet paper ($5.99). Total for groceries: $33.68.

Friday breakfast: pumpkin pancakes with blueberries, coffee; lunch: kale salad, pizza (arrabiata sauce, kalamata olives, roasted red peppers and salami), black tea, coffee shortbread; dinner: pasta with pesto and Brussels sprouts; snack: candied almonds.

Another frugal week starts tomorrow with a visit to the farmers market, and a Hands Off protest and then I will tackle a new topic: in hard times What Do You Need to Be Happy?